Sun Dancer

Dec 02
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Loners

To some degree this tumble-log represents the degree to which I am a loner. Some artistic musings, put up for whoever to see, yet left to a corner of the web where there are no legions of fans. My slightly more successful online identity (http://www.instagram.com/touchmedeeply/) only became “successful” because someone else posted regularly and because, in all likelihood, it leaned towards the pornographic. I am uncomfortable making somewhat of a transition to a public figure, but, perhaps, it is inevitable. I can only hope I retain an element of critical self-examination and peers which help me improve my own thought patterns.

Nov 28
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It’s nice to have poems once and awhile. Even better would be to have a people that is hearty and strong, and does not care only about money.

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earth:
“Eilean Donan Castle in Scotland @
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earth:

Eilean Donan Castle in Scotland @

(via thewickedfaerie)

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(Source: echiromani, via vivrearia)

Nov 27
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moldavia:
““ Ellu Arula in The Ones2Watch November 2011 by Ville Varumo
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moldavia:

Ellu Arula in The Ones2Watch November 2011 by Ville Varumo

(via catalina-skyes)

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ganymedesrocks:
“ laclefdescoeurs:
“Phaeton in the chariot of the sun, 1822, Luigi Ricciardi
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Luigi Ricciardi (1808 - 1877)
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ganymedesrocks:

laclefdescoeurs:

Phaeton in the chariot of the sun, 1822, Luigi Ricciardi

Luigi Ricciardi (1808 - 1877)

(via vivrearia)

Nov 21
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ptrklos-art:
“Ajax, Unconquered.
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ptrklos-art:

Ajax, Unconquered.

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(Source: ptrklos-art, via vivrearia)

Nov 20
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Fitness

Fitness in general is focused on feats of endurance and strength, with some vague science regarding how they are correlated to productivity.

In general the following considerations apply:

(1) “Energy” a vague term that often applies to bioelectricity or other subjects focused on in yoga and Chinese medicine in these traditions that can become blocked or stagnant and may require physical stimulus in order to flow
(2) Cardio activity and sweat appear are useful for stimulating the mind and body and keeping people focused (i.e. preventing distractions)
(3) Putting people into a goal oriented fitness routine whereby they surmount some obstacle is correlated with intense and focused breakthroughs in other areas of their lives, many of which require sustained effort and endurance through pain
(4) Muscle can become more lean and strong with repeated exertion and is capable of more action, something that is equally true of the mind
(5) Beauty of form is also related to strength, poise, and repetition, and highly correlates with beauty in other areas of life (c.f. fractal intuition)
(6) Quantitative measures are useful to keep minds in check which may go into euphoric and grandiose self-evaluation
(7) Team based sports or other ways of including competition and collaboration are proven ways of cultivating excellence (arete)
(8) The study of anatomy, including dissection, drawing, and physical cultivation is one time proven way of attaining completeness, in the sense of  pervasively treating a subject. The higher degree of self awareness the less likely you neglect things in other subject matter.


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Nutrition…

My greatest nutritional routine insofar as correlated with personal satisfaction, feeling of well being, and productivity has been paleo with intermittent fasting which basically includes:

7am: bulletproof coffee (branded beans, not sure about brand on MCT, ghee, + collagen protein and sometimes elk antler)

noon: meat ~8oz + greens + garnish. Meat sourced from farmer’s market or other local fresh variety, always grass fed with alternating meat and fish days. Garnish pickle or fruit something, but no carbs.

3pm: snack, consisting of nuts and berries or power bars.

6pm: power shake, esp. primal kitchen base, vitamineral greens, ice, and various extras (nuts, berries, acai)

Seeking 60g+ in supplemental protein per day and strict fitness schedule.

additionally, a complete purge of useless carbs, bad oils, is a must. Dairy needs to be kept to an absolute minimum.

That said, this has not translated well to ‘life on the road’  in which >50% of time spend other places and time zones.

Ideal transitions would include:

  - non-dairy coffee supplements that are portable and can be added to black coffee
  - pre-prepared vitamins in easily transportable packages
  - even more high protein bars that can fill in where protein rich sources are unavailable
  - pre-prepared shakers with mixes to fill in

Additional considerations concern alcohol intake and other substances that it is easy to intake on the road that have downstream effects, and how to appropriately limit their intake.

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Review of my own evolving psychology

My primary character flaws, as noted by others, are my tenancy to get overextended, my hypomanic phases, and aggressive tenancies which may be exacerbated by these phases. Other things that are probably net positive, but can be negative in some circumstances are extreme perfectionism, high preferences for non-verbal and asynchronous communication, and hyper-scheduling.

These cycles, which may be typical of a certain class of artist, are often detrimental to business success for the following reasons:

(1) Most people have relatively sensitive personalities and can’t weather the more intense emotional energy of ‘artist’ cycles
(2) Most folks are intimated by high degrees of perfectionism, especially when it comes to morality, and prefer to be in contexts where it is not obligatory (i.e. they don’t like there for there to be strong penalties for dishonesty, etc.)
(3) Most people also prefer to be approached gently when they are doing something incorrect or immoral and given multiple changes to self-correct behavior rather than anything that is ‘forcing’ a different state
(4) Many people only think when they are verbally expressing themselves and don’t have the pattern of collecting their thoughts an d putting them in writing, so cannot effectively use asynchronous communication mechanisms.
(5) Most people prefer extended block times for meetings and can’t compact their thoughts into the more performance oriented versions of such (i.e. back to back 10-20 minute meetings)
(6) In general there is a high human preference for talking more than doing that gets normalized in some cultures


Additionally, different societies or religious frameworks normalize certain types of ethics, including lapses in ethics, at a societal level. For example, many frameworks effectively internationalize a “truth-but” system where by truth is generally expected except in topical areas where it is of lesser importance. These are usually signaled by some emotional queuing, such as a sly smile, such that one knows that one is in an ‘emotional content first’ arena.

Despite these sometimes tendencies that can be endemic to humans, there are sub-categories where the above does not apply. In general, for example, people who have have an astonishing degree of business success, such as a Bezos, develop hyper-scheduling mechanisms. Additionally, many top tier organizations establish elaborate filtering mechanisms to prevent themselves from sliding into the talking realm, including some that are institutionalized at a societal level (i.e. mandatory military service).

Nov 15
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Am I a god?

Am I a god?
Maybe once.
I do not know what that means anymore
godlike vision?
godlike stamina?
godlike strength?
Perhaps to be a god is simply
to know too much
and forever
linger in
discontent.

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We are the fallen.
We once walked like angels
now we tear the earth
pretending to be of the light.
Yes we sparkle
but
if you must know the truth
we hate heaven.

Nov 14
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In my generation
all the best people
quit their jobs
bought crypto
did lots of drugs
sold utopians
traded the hype
and went up in smoke.